Quite an upsetting day

So I had to be up early today and I really didnt get a lot of sleep this weekend so that probably adds to the fact that I'm not feeling too happy. Well I put up the IMAX xmas decorations after work today and it was going alright until I realized that this will be the first time in four years that I'd be alone for xmas. Well lets just say that the thought really bummed me out. I was thinking about it for the whole walk home and decided to check out facebook and my email before going to bed when I noticed that Matt changed his status to say that he is now dating his internet chick.

Well I should have known it would happen but I was taken by surprise. Well it pretty much knocked the wind out of me and I almost threw up. So I erased him from my facebook and took him off my msn, and erased his number from my phone in the hopes that I can forget him and the pain he has caused me.

I just dont want to hurt anymore. I just dont want to be that girl that can't move on with her life but I find it really hard when you've pretty much been cheated on not to get emotional when you think about it. I know I will eventually get over this but its just really hard when you think that the person who meant the world to you for four years could just turn around and stab you in the back.

Sorry I'm just having a really bad day.